Tag: #figuringouttheworld

It started in 2015, April to be exact. I had met my husband, and as cliche as it sounds, the second I saw this man.. well I just knew he was it. Apparently the feeling was mutual We were engaged that August! Shortly after the engagement we moved in together. We had the world going for us and we couldn’t be stopped! I loved this man more and more each day i knew him. It was like we had known each other our whole lives. We married that following October in 2016. The wedding was beautiful! Soon after in December, we found out we were expecting!!! I was terrified, and I later found out that Alex was too but he hid it well for me the whole time, and let me tell you that pregnancy was awful! I had HG (hyperemesis gravidarum) otherwise known as 24/7 sickness. Even changing my diet and on prescribed medication I stayed sick up until delivery. Which in of itself was almost catastrophic. My wonderful blessing was 9lbs 3oz and wonderfully healthyon his arrival date in September! Mommy on the other hand almost bled out during the birth. I don’t even truly remember the last half of it, when I blacked out. I awoke several hours later and finally had the chance to hold the baby boy I had longed for in my dreams. We immediately attempted to breast feed but alas there was no success, no amount of coaching from the nurses or my mom helped, bubba just couldn’t latch. I felt like a failure. I felt like my body let me down, like maybe i wasn’t meant to be a momma to this boy.. after the 3 day stay in the hospital we discovered that little man had colic, I had it when I was a baby and i guess he was taking after me. Let me just tell you that through all of this Alex was such a dang trooper! Not one time did he complain about helping me while recovery, not one time did he say he was exhausted ( like I knew he was). He was there all through the night for every feeding, every diaper change, every bath! Watching him be a daddy to this little boy made my heart swell and love him more! The next few months of our lives were chaotic, we were dealing with colic, with my PPD and PPA, we were dealing with me trying to go back to work. We survived though. We made it through all of the beginner parental mistakes we all make! So let me fast forward a little bit to our big move! That’ll be in my next write:) I hope you’ll read that too